If you have any hope, or your computer screen is dirty, perhaps you can see Carrie out there dancing on a cloud somewhere...
We were flying on that trip, before all the crazy happened, and Max leaned up to me and said, "Mom! Look out there somewhere! Carrie's out there!" And then just gleamed at me with comfort and pride. Then he looked for her as if he was expecting to see her just right over there, dancing on the clouds. Me too. So, I snapped a picture to capture the moment.
Sometimes, I consider that I'm stuck and maybe I should get over losing her. But then again, I think the best way to honor someone is to never forget them. To remember her and smile. To learn from her and her contributions to life.
And then Max and Lucy bring her memory back to me with such joy, their eyes all lit up. "Mom! Remember when Carrie did this!!?" I know they miss her. A part of me believes that when they remember her and talk to me about her, they are taking my hand, giving a little squeeze and trying to comfort me by always keeping her close. It's beautiful.
So, today, for Carrie, enjoy your view.
Happy Carrie Day!
Song of the Day: Glitter In The Air by Pink
To Carrie!
I'd like to hear a funny story about Carrie :-)
I like that I can remember her now wtih great happiness. Although I will always be sad that we lost her, I do not feel the devestation anymore when I think about her. Much easier to remember the goodness and fun now! Love you with all my heart.
What an incredible thing for Max to say at such a young age. You really do have amazing kids. Hugs!