Today is the anniversary of losing our girl, Carrie. I'm doing fine, and time does heal the heart a little bit. But there's a little scar there, shall we say. So, I suppose, she'll be with me always, just like my stretchmarks.
As I said before, a death anniversary to me, is just remembering the date of the year. If you've ever lost someone close to you, you know that each day counts. Not just every 365th day. Every day. And I think when you lose someone that's your age, your peer, your sista, well, it's taught me to embrace every day. Every. Day.
When I was in Texas, I had a moment to go visit the cemetery. It's always a very quick and peaceful moment for me. Max and Lucy and my mom joined me this time. Mom let me have my moment. Lucy and Max were gentle, sensitive and minimal with their questions.
It makes my heart warm to know that they got a part of Carrie too. And every now and then, they blow by (because they always just blur right by me, there's no slowing down) and have a memory about Carrie and then say, "I sure do miss her!" Me too sweets. Me too. And then they run right out again. I'm starting to really rely on the memories and usually end up spontaneously giggling at our antics.
I also got to visit with Carrie's parents and see her dogs. Her parents let me have visitation with the dogs. It's nice. Her parents are two of the strongest souls I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. They also let me in, feed me and laugh at all my jokes, in just the right places.
Yallison and I and just about everyone who knew Carrie miss her deeply. When you met Carrie, you never forgot her. She was vibrant, crazy and determined. She taught me a lot about loyalty, friendship, heartbreak, tape mixes and crazy. That girl was brilliantly stubborn. Thank you so much for allowing Yallison and I celebrate Carrie. We lean on each other so much. And Carrie would get a big kick out of how close she's brought us together even more.
That's how I roll.
Song of the Day - The Space Between - Dave Matthews Band
I can't wait for the book that I know you're working on every day ;-) Did you ever get the tattoo? My thoughts are with you today; I walk in those shoes, too. xoxo
It was actually through Carrie that I found out about your blog, and when I tell people to read it, I explain to them how I got to it from Carrie. Although she and I didn't hang out a lot, we always had a ball at our "girl's night out" gatherings. You're right, she was a fireball and always laughing. Remember the good times. sp
HI Michelle, Yes, I got the tattoo. Here's a shameless plug on my own darned blog, but it has the picture so: http://www.momontherocks.com/2008/11/id-say-ive-proven-now-that-i-k.html And I'm writing the book, in my head. Thanks for the wake up call! I'm back on it now!
Hi Sharon! Thank you for continuing to read the blog! Yallison and I and a few others call this day Carrie Day. So, to you I say, Happy Carrie Day!
"We lean on each other so much. And Carrie would get a big kick out of how close she's brought us together even more."
She is currently gloating and taking 100% full credit for this. You know it's true. To Carrie, I say thank you for bringing you and I even closer. Did not even know it could happen. Love her and miss her wtih all my heart every day. Happy Carrie Day!
Happy Carrie Day!