Some of you may know that song reference. I don't care how straight I am, I love the Indigo Girls, and have braved being the minority at Lillith Fair every year they had it so I could sing along as loud as possible to that song. That, and I'm a bonafide member of the Sarah McLachlan fan club. You shut up, anyone who writes a song about ICE CREAM is a friend of mine!
Back to the song title. I thought I'd take this opportunity to bring y'all up to date on my heart mending from losing my girl, Carrie. You know, when someone loses a loved one, after the funeral and all the thank you notes are over with, you really don't know how it's going after that. How could you? Well, from the blog, ofcourse!
First of all, Carrie's family is doing ok. Some days are harder than others. Sadly, they've dealt with loss before. I wish this made it easier to deal with, but I'm guessing not, it's probably overwhelmingly worse. The good news is, I don't leave them alone. (Well, it's good news on my side, atleast.) I harass them as much as I can without legally being a stalker. (I know my rights.) They are all very open and real about how they are dealing with Carrie being gone. Thank you for your prayers for them, as well. Please continue to pray for them.
Also, thank you to JB, my PILs, J-dawg, Scrapbookdisneydiva, Erica and my MOMMY for your very generous donations. Back in my non-profit working days, the mantra was, "It never hurts to ask." So, I sent out the ol mass email as well as posted on this blog begging for sponsorship. And it sure doesn't hurt to ask. It actually melts my heart. It's so sweet and heartwarming to see not only the donations roll in, but who's making them. Some of y'all knew Carrie. Some of y'all never met her, but you know my heart, and so you do this for me. Some of y'all, I haven't even seen in years. Your donations are the greatest hugs to me. Thank you so much. Your actions speak bounds and will not be forgotten!
If you would still like to donate money or your time, it's not too late! Wink, wink. As a family, Ricardo, Max and Lucy will join me and walk with Carrie's friends in Texas in November. If you'd like to join us, in the words of Bob Baker: C'mon down!
I am doing better each day. It still takes my breath away to know she's just not here. I still think to call her and tell her a funny kid story. I know now that she's my angel. And I think she left this earth knowing that she was leaving me with Yallison. Yallison and I take good care of each other and nurture our precious friendship even more now. MyDaph and Julz(Holla!) take good care of me, and are on the mend too! The both of us just see life's little perks and celebrate them more now. I thought I was all grown up when I got married and had kids. But I think I've got more clarity now, more gratitude for life. Yallison does too, I can hear it in her voice. So, we embrace the slow process of mending our broken hearts, and I think we're a little bit Closer to Fine each day.
That's how I roll.
